Its All About You

Its been almost 7 years since I have been saved and born again. Which means it has been almost 7 years since my restoration journey first began. Looking back at the last seven years is sort of mind blowing. Let me be the first to tell you that it has not been easy. I have never gone through as much as I have in the past 7 years as I have in my entire life.

People assume because I have a restored marriage that David and I just rode off into the sunset and lived happily ever after. NOT! The devil fights DAILY against my marriage. It gets exhausting but I know he wouldn't work so hard against me unless he was afriad of something.

It is now looking back at my journey that I can see why God allowed so much to happen and why I had to endure such heartbreak and hardship. God was toughening me up for the battles that would come after restoration. Not just marital but for my self battles.

I believe now more than ever that my restoration journey was truly ALL ABOUT GOD AND ME, not David and I. My marriage was the circumstance he used to get my attention. It was the situation that He allowed to help shape and mold me. The marriage restoration was second to my restoration to him.

I often say that my restoration journey was the best thing that could have happened to me and if I could do it all over again I would. While I do love David and I am so blessed with him, my marriage is not the reason I would go through the fire and back.

During my journey I got to know and love God. Jesus became my Lord AND Savior. I couldn't imagine my life without Him now and I know it was because of my journey. It was through all of the hurt and pain that I was able to know God on a much deeper and personal level. He showed Himself to me in the midst of my trials. He was indeed made stronger in my weaknesses.

So I urge you today to take every pain and every circumstance and use that as a way to get closer to God. Not for marriage restoration but for YOU. This situation you find yourself in is ALL ABOUT YOU and how God wants a deeper relationship with you.

My realtionship with God was so wonderful that I began praying to not be restored. Imagine that! God was such a wonderful husband to me and I didn't want that to end. I prayed for David to be saved but that didn't require being married to me. It was then that David's heart was truly beginning to turn back to me and I had to pray to love David again because I didn't want to be his wife.

God reminded me of His plans for my life and my feelings were short lived. I did fall back in love with David and still am, deeply. But my love for God is beyond compare. David feels the same way. It took him a while to get there, but his relationship with Christ has grown by leaps and bounds and I LOVE that he loves God more than me. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Do you know how special YOU are? God is seeking to have a personal relationship with you. During your journey take time to look at what is the most important and you will never regret it whether your marriage is restored or not.